2010

Its been about 2 weeks since I blogged. Indeed I've a lot to share. Nothing special happens ever since new year starts, as well as on my birthday too, which was about 2 weeks ago. I felt so down that I didn’t have the chance to back home as I was short of budget and coincidentally having so much tests and projects.

Started my new year, for the first time for 18 years, I celebrated it with my bestest pal, Robiatul Adawiyah at Suria KLCC, together with her boo. Ouh how cute. Its just the three of us. We planned to go together with a bigger group of people, but somehow EVERYONE cancelled it. Since its dangerous to hang out around Dataran or Bukit Bintang with just the three of us, we decided to see the fireworks at a so called closed area....which is the KLCC. Left school after zuhur, reached KL at around 4, had our meal, our asar and mghrib too, and finally took a seat infront of the fountain of KLCC at 8. Oh well, everybody knows fireworks start at 12.. SO we waited there for 4 hours watching the colourful air pancut.. BOOM at 12am sharp, there it goessss.. I got to see the biggest firework in Malaysia, LIVE. =D We wandered around at KL, and had a late supper at 3 and finally headed to Putrajaya. We lepak there, and finally went to the mosque, and had our rest. Phew. Then we proceeded to have our breakfast at Bangi, and took a nap at somewhere around Kajang area. We cari pasal again by going to Mines, and guess what? It was a karaoke session. LOL. We had enough, and sent Adha to Friday prayer, and we headed back to hostel.. It was damn tiring not being at home for more than 24 hours! Oh well yet it was fun, having to release all the school tension.

Though I know Abah is not happy to see me going out that late at night, but Abah, trust me, I didn’t do anything bad, and I take your words.. “nk klua, bile abah tkde dpn mate, tkpe...” teehee..

Oh well thats about new year celebration.

Now that I have about a month to exams time, I dont think I would have the time for more ‘entertainment’ as deans award is always in mind. Oh well, it has been my aim since my first semester here. Partnership accounting is cracking my head and it doubts my effort to get what I have ever wished for. =( Economics too. I did badly for my test, as well as Fiqh, since I HATE MUNAKAHAT LIKE SERIOUS SHITS. I have no idea what is happening to me. For all I know, I’ve been trying my very best to be the best, mugging 24/7 around the clock, cause I have never want to disappoint mak abah...all I need to do now is, have faith in myself, and keep striving(:

9th Jan. Cant stop smiling to think that 2 years have actually passed...I miss my secondary school days..and those days right after my Os. Now that I’m no more a 16-year old girl and that, time has changed, people changed, too. Hmm they say, expect the unexpected. But I have never expected that this would ever happen in my life, now. Love grows without even me realising it how it actually started. And worst now, I can rarely see myself without him. Oh well. Allah knows the best. Perhaps we are just meant to be just friends, and thats the fact, thats what destined for me. Its just fated to be no more. I’ve been sobbing my heart out to see the changes in us now, but perhaps thats just the best way. It hurt me indeed, to see us now without ‘us’ just like how it used to be, a while ago. My bad. I shouldn’t have ruined our precious friendship. My bad again, for not knowing who he really is, the one whom I used to call my bestest friend ever. Sigh. Deepest apology. Trust me, you are still my friend, no matter what, and we still are. You promised it, too.

Its 2010. And I decide not to dwell on things too much. Let the past be. If something is meant to be, then it is, and it is going to happen when it is supposed to happen. Its just a matter of time.

For now I just need to focus on exams. I miss Mak Abah Hakim and Kak Yanie. Kali ni paling lama aku tak balik aku rasa... I miss Amirah too. Dah lama tk berbual. Pakcik pulak dah balik from Terenganu, tkde sape mau contact aku.. Hmm.. Sighhh...

was it all that easy

...to just put aside your feelings?..