This blog has not been updated for a week, and Nur Farahani has been demanding me to do so. LOL. Nothing much happens during this hols. There aint something interesting to share. Alhamdulillah work has been okay. It is just so great to work with my own seniors, Shida and Zul. Though we have been like strangers before, everything goes so well at the office. Kak Shida is super gerek, and so is Zul. It has been two years being together in the same college, but its only now that we get to know each other. Oh well. There it goes, I got some new friends(:

I’ve been fed up with some things. I’m fed up with some situations now. It is as if the past is being a shadow that has been haunting me all day long. I wonder why they keep bringing up the matters in the past. I’m over it but still, I hear a lot of stories linked to my past. I’m getting sick of it. Everyone now has their own lives and they are living it. They are fine without me, they deserve each other, he’s got his own happiness, and so do I. So please stop those negative thoughts, those stupid stories of my past, aiyah, someone is being so childish and nonsensical. Stop reminding me about the past. It hurts tho it has healed.

Amirah has been busy with attachments, and the same goes to me. I just wish for a day out with her. Letting out all these uneasy feelings. I miss being with her. Next, Kak Yanie is broke, and its hard now to hang out and do some shoppings. Gah. My holiday is just super damn boring. I just couldn’t figure out why, but sometimes I just feel much better not to be here. I’m not being mean. But thats the fact. I am here, just for some reasons. I do admit, I miss my Msian friends too.. I miss them alot. Tho it has been just one week plus, but I just feel incomplete without them by my side. Sometimes I just wonder, why its only now that I start to realise, how precious they are to me. Semester 4 II 2009/2010, created a real bond between us all, and I treasured those moments. No words could ever describe how grateful I am to have all of you in my life now.

Everybody change. So do I. As time passes, and as everything has really changed, you cant expect me to remain the old me. Aku sendiri dapat rase, aku dah berubah bnyak. In terms of facing the truth in life lah.. Im becoming more positive..from someone who used to be so serious, who used to take things so seriously, skrg aku jadi more relaxed..taking things easily..and I am now, more cheerful than before. Though I may be hurt by some recent incidents regarding my relationship thingy, I tend to pretend as if nothing has ever happened. Buat macam biase je.. I admit the feelings for that someone keeps growing but lets just forget about it. Maybe its just best that we remain friends..maybe its just best to make it back to square one. Its just useless to dwell on something that is vague, something that you yourself are unsure of owning it..something that you know, its hard to be yours. So Im taking it easy. Im chilling. Im living my life for what I have right now. I just dont ever want to think much. Lama2 takut white hair pulak grow. LOL xD

I’m missing school. I miss Ayn and Hani. So much. But hey, this is life isn’t it?. We cant be together all the time. As long as you are in my dua everytime, and Im in yours, our friendship can be sustained, and insya Allah will remain forever..

Endless Love♥. That ring is as if forever attached to this little finger of mine(: tak sekali pun dibuka(:

~~ And Waheshny, too.
I can still here the voice inside of me, calling out your name ♥♥~~
i wish you know who you are(:

Oh well. I have been listening to Mungkin Nanti by Peterpan. And Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang by Alyah. Lagu dah lama. But the lyrics are just perfecto, after everything that has happened. Jom, discover balik. (: they are specially dedicated to someone whom I used to adore alot, once upon a time ago.

"Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini"

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"Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali sekala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti.. "

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Next, Graduation by Vitamin C.. it reminds me of HAMPAGAS. Missing them to the core..

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on We remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly..

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