soon ..

Everything seems like a mess. Haywire. Otak tak dpt nk berpke. Sometimes it's just hard to accept the truth. the truth that we are going to be apart so soon.

It's decided. That place is your choice, and to stay here, is mine. 3 more months and you'll not be around. 3 more months and I'll be away for internship, without having those kind of lovely people around me.. Oh. How life's gonna be 3 months away from now?.. me and you, without us.

Sigh. It's true that we should just let time decides.. But for how long should I endure this?. Fear of being left is as if haunting. They say, we should always expect the unexpected. But as for me, I'm expecting the worst... =(

To be ignorance towards others, to be selfish, to pretend not to care, to be so egoistic, is so not me. But what more choices do I have?. This is the only way to restrain myself from putting on high hopes.. Why should I bother when people seem like they do not care, anymore?..

He's going far to achieve what he has ever wished for. It's decided. He, has decided. And me, I'll end up staying here for my ACCA after my diploma.. My aim is to get the world wide accounting license.. and straight away go for a getaway.. a long one perhaps..

Yes. I'm indeed happy.

But that doesnt mean I'm not hurt.

Deep down I'm totally lost, and I just cnt think much.

3 years back..

I once wondered, "gosh, why am I here?"

now that that 3-years is going to end so soon,

I just wish to stay here a little longer...

I found this in an old friend's page, and this reminds me of Mr.P.

sometimes we let affection goes unspoken,

sometimes we let our love goes unexpressed,

sometimes we cant find words to express our feelings,

especially towards those we love the best.

dah mcm lagu lafaz yg tersimpan..

nk simpan2, smpai bile dehh..

should I take a few steps back?..

p/s

if it's meant to be, then it is..

tak, tak lah..

=(