Slot Akasia? (".)

Assalamualaikum!

Guys, I cant exactly figure out what I'm thinking right now. For all I know, I'm too stressed with my revision. Exams kali ni mcm tkder confident. But somehow I'll still try my very best lahh..

Sigh. Met Syirul and Mun yesterday in front of the library, and yeah, kat dalam tgn Syirul mase tu ader leaving form!! So Syirul betul2 nak berhenti. Haiz. Okay agak terkejut when she told that she's going to Zuhri... Intake bulan depan.. Gah. Zuhri?, Syirul? Of all places? Of all instutions? Takpelah.. Iqah doakan Syirul berjaya kat mane2 pun kayh.

Rase sayu sangat Syirul nak berhenti. Rase macam nak ikut Syirul jugak balik Spore.. Belajar kat sane. Mcm ape yg aku nak dulu. Infact masih lagi rase teringin. I hugged Syirul tightly... Aku akan rindu Syirul. Dan yah, setahun lebih je lagii to go.. Its not a long period of time anyway..

Macam2 ader kt fikiran.. Lately someone has been a lil bit cold towards me. I've been wondering why. Cos he seems okay with others, so much okay, infact. But when its comes to me, it is as if there is something wrong. Hey You, did I do something wrong towards u? Just let it out. Your silence and that type of irritating attitude sucks.

I tend to care less about that. I'm sick thinking about these kind of stuffs, and gah, I'm letting it be. You want it that way, then fine, I'll let it be YOUR way.

Mind feels like cracking. I just feel like banging this head to the wall as hard as I could.

The fact that it's now september 2009 hurts me softly in the inside...

Reminiscence. Reminiscence. Reminiscence.

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Guys. listen to this song, Slot Akasia by Fabulous Cat.

Inikah berakhirnya hidupku

Yang ku rasa tidak secantik potret

Yang terlakar di kaca

Inikah makna cinta

Datangnya berbunga-bunga

Belum dijamah

Pahitnya jelas terasa

Ku renung kisah kita

Perbalahan antara erti bersama

Airmata dan lelah buat kita berbalah

Dendam terwujud,

Segala yang indah hilang

Dari satu hujung ke satu penguhjung berlari

Tapi hanya makin ku jalani

Jalan-jalan yang sempit sekali

Imbasan warna-warni

Cerita-cerita dalam hidup kita

Hingga paling kelam kan terpapar

Di Slot Akasia...

Jauh ku fikirkan tentang kita tanpa kita

Sedalam-dalam kita mencari jawapan yang sama..

Mungkin berbeza antara jalan yang ditentukan

Namun ku percaya jika mata ditutup

Di situ ada cinta.

Berpasangan insan telah dijadikan

Dalam satu jiwa bakal mewujudkan

Bermusim kegelepan dapat dipinggirkan

Namun kita manusia senang dibutakan

Menyintai bukan untuk disakiti

Sejambak bicara harus ditepati

Carta belaian jiwa dilonjakkan tinggi

Tak menjunam jatuh menghempas ke bumi

Takkan berbunyi

Bila bertepuk sebelah tangan

Setinggi mana tak guna nak dikecapi

Tiada dua, satu jiwa tiada erti

Tiada lagi rekaan khayalan mimpi ngeri menyelubungi

Hanya meniti hari meneliti hati..

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Changed my mixpod playlists. All to malay songs.

Just feel like jiwang-ing. For now.

1. Slot Akasia -Fabulous Cats

2. Cinta Tak Bersyarat - Element

3. Tanpa - 6ixth Sense

4. Kau Ilhamku -E One

5. Rimas - Fabulous Cats

Okay, jumpa raya nanti! xD

wallhu albi wa ruuhi fiik o.O

..and I stilll shed a tear, every once in a while..