4th december. the past, and the present

its 4th december 2009.

and i just couldnt believe it.

a year has passed.

and flashback starts to play, surrounding this mind.

4th december, a year ago,

its a real reminiscence.

the moment when i was asked to remove our pics.

oh how hurtful it was.

oh how time flies.

i'm getting much more better,

taking things positively, as a lesson and experience in life.

things have really changed.

and ive never thought us to end things that way.

oh well.

Allah knows everything best for us.

now that im here,

having a so-called new life, without you by my side,

im just okay :D

we are still friends, thats for sure.

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4th december 2009.

its now.

history repeats.

im just surprised by some facts.

that im just a no one,

that im just a normal friend.

oh how sad.

it took me about a year more to realise how stupid i was.
..to not realise that you were always by my side.

but oh well..

if only i knew things have never been serious...

i wouldnt let this feeling bloom just for you.

i did doubt of what i feel.

but as time passes, it starts to grow.

and i just keep denying it,

cause ive had enough of it,

and i tend to just let it be.

..to just go with the flow.

let time decides.

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ive been away from sch for 3 days.

and it feels like ive been away for years.

oh how i start to realise,

life is damn bored without having to rush to sch and stuff,

am i missing sch? or perhaps someone?

oh well. wtv.

knee is recovering.

but its still in pain.

i just couldnt walk properly.

i just hope that i wud manage to go to class by this coming monday.

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someone is down.

but he refused to tell whats in his mind.

he seems moody.

bored.

how i wish i could do something.

i really want to.

but he seems to care less.

perhaps i should let him be on his own.

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to kak yanie,

be strong with all the tests.

and..

have a safe surgery.

love you.

to yadh,

hope bapak kau okay2 saje.

syafahullah.

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i was hoping for at least some hi from you,

but to no avail.. =(