caught.

sometimes we wonder why those unexpected things happen. oh well. cause there is nothing impossible in this world. every single thing happens for a reason. and only He knows why.

as time passes, i just couldnt bear living life without the presence of that person, still. missing those days yet i wouldnt want to be a bitch. let him think. let him change. let this friendship remains without any crazy thoughts, and finally, just let him be.

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have you ever crossed your mind, that you'll somehow hate your closest pal, and finally create a distance?. it sounds cruel but it happens. patience has its limits and i think i've reached the peak of it. trying not to dislike, trying not to live in hatred but things keep happening. though i've tried my very best to be cool, to accept the way you are, but i just couldnt bear to see the sudden change in you. what happen?. have been trying hard to have a talk, but im just scared if things doesnt turn out smoothly. cause my instinct strongly says, that you'll still have it your way.

keeping silence means keeping things to be discreet. but does that mean im hating, or im just fear to lose anymore friends?.

know that i've been such a burden, know that you have been a great help all these while, know that we are so much closedd, im just caught in the middle of nowhere. to tell, or not to tell. to remain silent, or let it out. im just hurt by all of your doings. and oh well. this thing sucks. i still love the bond. i really do. =(

all i do now is just praying for the best, for us, hoping that you'll realise your mistakes one fine day. cause to some extent, most of it, im hurt, too much disheartened.

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its 20th december...

happy 18th birthday to Afifah Fityatii..

May Allah bless youu..

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cintaku dulu telah ku buang jauh

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