Emotion Strucks.

It's been hard on me now. Belajar tak lah men-stress kan. Yang buat stress is some of the systems, and some other personal matters that keep bothering mind like every single minute.

I just feel like talking to someone, like how I used to before. I just feel like having someone nagging like non-stop but at the same time giving me kinda support, not to give up easily, comforting me, consoling me all the time. I miss all that.

I could not be there for Lina when she went off to Syria as I had to register for my new school. Bro came back to his school in Kuwait and I was having class and lectures. The most recent tragedy, I could not show up in KLIA to send Haiqal off to Ireland due to some financial and transportation problems.

Depressing. Seriously.

Put that aside. Next is my passport problem. Been here for 20 days and I still have not settled my visa thingy, and I have to go back Singapore in 10 days time while at the same time I've paid for my UMAC program this weekend ! Urgh.

I took supplements. I took my breakfast. Which both I think are the most essential things I need right now, tp not get tired easily. But I can do nothing much, when emotions starts control everything. I will just end up moodless. Pfft.

I missed my old time too much. I simply miss ALL of my KUIS friends. It is just hard to believe, we are heading to different path, achieving our goals at a new stage of life. It feels like yesterday was the first day we met. Susah nak terima semua ni. Perpisahan yang bagi impact cukup mendalam.

And, it's painful to really feel something is really missing. I knew it. But being ignorant is the only thing I can do now.

It has been like ages since I voiced out. I just dont have the idea, of how long should I endure this. It is really, indeed, killing me inside..

"It's been in the past, for a while, I get a flash and I smiled..

Where has the love go ? I dont know ~

When it's all said and done,

How could I be losing you forever ? "

Mr Patrick. A name that has been kept deep down, untouched, till now.

Ya Allah, lindungilah dia sentiasa.