the words

Things happened unexpectedly and I was damn startled by the situation. It was surprisingly unexpected.

Can friendship ever turn into something more?.

It is somehow not impossible as I, myself, have been facing that kind of situation, in which I tend to adore someone in the same circle of friends, secretly. It all happened without even me realising it. All I know is, I like that someone, so much, and the feelings seem to grow more each day, though things between us have changed alot, and worst, we are like strangers. Though I have been trying hard to simply ignore, but deep inside, I just cant deny that the missingness is just unbearable.

I do appreciate that another someone who tends to appreciate me more, and care for me so much. His boldness in confessing impressed me but deepest apology from the deepest of my heart, that I’m still not willing to give any response at the moment, as I’m still in a great pain of heartache.

But that was just part of the reasons. Chances can always be given but there are still alot more for me to think before any decision is made. Furthermore, our friendship is so much loved. And since it is so much treasured, I wouldn’t want to hurt anybody, and I hold on to this: “if it is meant to be, then it is.” Ape yg meant to be?... Figure it out. Ape2 pon boleh.

It was about a few months ago that I have decided to pursue my studies somewhere far away. I do admit it will be such a painful decision as I then have to leave all my friends In Spore and Msia. Though Abah is trying hard asking around about that particular university, this is yet to be confirmed, as scholarships or any loan , or any sponsors are so much needed. And afterall, I still have another one more year to think wisely.

Speaking of ‘one more year’... its just one more year to the final of the final semester. And now I’m leaving year 2.. the most wonderful moments in my life here..sigh.

SKRG TGH EXAMS so obviously its mugging time now..blogging is just a side track heh. Heee. Cant wait for holidaysss..coming back homeee, to my beloved family and friends. (:

Nothing else to say, I shall stop here.

BYE.

Nothing feels right when I’m not with you.